For me, it’s seeing the headache from OOC drama that staff are forced to deal with.
Like, it’s not enough that you need to code/update/write for a game, and generate excitement with players even when you yourself are drained from RL and don’t even feel like RPing, but you HAVE TO because otherwise you are letting down your players (to be clear, you’re not, but this is the mindset), and all of the other sacrifices you have to make for a game to run well.
But you also have to moderate fights on the junior high school level of maturity like “this character flirted with my IC boyfriend and so now I have to find a way to convince other players that she’s awful so people stop RPing with her”.
I just want to write compelling stories for players, and not have to be navigate cliques, OOC drama, mental health issues, etc.
So I stick to just writing up plotlines and running them as a player, and every once in a while inspiration hits for a campaign and I run it for 3-4 friends on Discord. That scratches my itch.
But yeah, dealing with the amped up drama of a bunch of people who never have to face the repercussion of what they do because the other people involved are on the other side of a keyboard? Not my circus, not my monkeys.