a year after an extremely rough breakup with a narcissist who constantly verbally abused me, gaslit me, and was starting into physical abuse when I pulled the plug and I am still getting massively triggered sometimes when a stray thought about the way she treated me hits. I get so worked up and angry about it and it is so frustrating because it just feels like there will never be any recompense for what she did.
she lied to our mutual friends about everything, treated my son like shit, stole from me, not only money and things but something I can never replace (an album of pictures I took and developed in high school, with all the negatives). while I lost everything after giving so much to her and that relationship, she went on to marry one of our friends within the year and just moved on into his life like nothing happened.
I get that that won’t last, someone that destructive and selfish eventually will burn those bridges and have to move on to the next mark, and the people who I thought were my friends who rejected me will eventually realize who and what she is. but that doesn’t make it feel any better, it really just hurts worse, because her damage will continue to be done and what I’ve lost I can’t get back.
I’m in therapy and trying to work through it, but it just fuckin sucks.
