After nearly 26 years of off-and-on struggle with college — and a whole list of unresolved mental health issues going on at the same time, beginning with my biological mother’s death and the subsequent mixed family drama almost a year after that — I am, today, August 1 2025, officially in possession of a Bachelor of Science degree in Computer Science. (Today is my conferral date.)
It’s been a long road.
I don’t have a horse in the Star Wars MU* race, but I do have a very vested interest in not hearing after the fact about how underage porn happened on a MU*.
(And yes, I do consider it EXTREMELY LIKELY TO OCCUR when underage characters and players are permitted on a MU* with an R-rating.)
You are setting yourself up for potentially serious consequences. So let me make it clear:
DO NOT ALLOW UNDERAGE ANYTHING
@HannahBananna said in Silent Heaven: Small-town Horror RPG:
@Pavel Thankfully if you had any of the four you’d be smart enough not to start shit with someone who’s obviously always been above you. This ain’t my way of asking. My way of asking was going onto the discord server and politely asking, like an ADULT, something you are STILL proving you’re incapable of being. This is my way of continuing to be an adult and taking away the toys of people who want to be spoiled brats. Like you. Daed.
If this is your way of being an adult, you have a very misguided definition in your mental database.
@Roz said in People Doing Things:
i don’t know if most arx folks have noticed the number of code contributions @dvoraen has made to arx, but i have
@Ashen-Shugar So let’s see if I can explain why I disagree with a metaphor. This is how your point comes across, to me:
I own a building. A crime happens in my building. I’m culpable for the crime because I own the building.
So I suddenly am expected to a) track what goes on in the building; b) had any control whatsoever about what happens inside the building.
That’s ridiculous, and most certainly not how it works in today’s society, otherwise companies and schools would be liable for the mass shootings that happen inside their areas. It’s an absolutely absurd take.
I reject the idea that I need to tacitly monitor everything that happens on a MU* I run because someone might do something illegal. That’s like saying I should wiretap my neighbors because they talked about where to hide a corpse, because I live in the same apartment complex. Oh no, they did something bad, clearly I need to have been more responsible to make sure it didn’t happen so I could tell the cops, to the point of being unethical and invasive in my methods!
No.
Preface: This is not a request for sympathy, forgiveness, or even understanding, because I have no right to ask for any of that.
To start off, I’m posting this because my brain will not shut the fuck up about it even over a week later. I’ve tried to distract myself from it, but the issue will not stop harassing me. It keeps resurfacing. I do wonder if it’s a byproduct of being on the autism spectrum and/or ADHD (and the fact I really take rejection hard), but I don’t know. All I know is that I have to get this off my chest.
I’m not going to answer questions about the details. I’m deliberately leaving out the who and where and focusing solely on the what. Some of you already know about this, because you were involved and/or can guess from my username, which I use in multiple locations (Discord and more), but I don’t want to sweep what happened under the rug and assume everything will be fine. Because it’s not, in the abstract.
Anyway, to make a long story short, I had my first experience with being disinvited from a game. I still can’t really identify what it was I said or did that led to me being approached and told I should go because of my conduct that made other people uncomfortable. There were no sexual propositions or anything of the sort, but the discussion was that my conduct on channels as a guest and during chargen had been noted, and the sum of it led to me being effectively asked to leave.
I was absolutely shocked and anxious over it, sitting in my chair reading that, because no one had voiced any explicit concerns to me saying there’s an issue until that moment, but at the end of the day what mattered was that I did something that bothered other people to the point that staff had to get involved and say this isn’t the place for you. My response was “Alright.” and that I’d take my leave, and I logged off right after.
I can only remember talking on public channels and paging three people, two of which I’ve spoken to multiple times on other games and/or Discord. One of those two explicitly asked me when I was getting my butt approved. I’ve come to the conclusion that matters have silently changed with the second of the two, and as such I needed to keep my distance from them, including Discord. So I chose to silently break contact, left DM groups, and have tried to not interact with them.
Anyway, I peeked at the game site, got the message my site was blocked from the portal, and wondered why I went there in the first place, even if it was just to hit the logout button. It was a stupid thing to do, but I still did it.
So yeah. I did something, the aftermath is bothering me still, and the worst part is I still can’t identify to myself what behavior of mine is the problem.
That’s all.
I don’t feel like copy-pasting from MSB, so I’m just going to go into recent history as I can remember it, with a few special mentions.
UPDATED - Feb 11, 2024
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* Everywhere I transplanted Svoran (most of them WoT games), it was for character research. “How does he think and react to X situation?” In my personal writing, Svoran is the one character where I could not get into his headspace without character research. Plus, I could not figure out how grumpy he was on average, and to whom, why the fuss, etc. I think I’ve finally figured him out, but this was a 20+ year endeavor to iron him out into his current form in my writing.
MU*ing has been a godsend with figuring out character mindsets, to the point I stopped doing character research because my writing felt more mature as far as figuring out how to write people as people, if that makes sense? But for a while, I was playing some characters from my personal fiction of Aldera to try and figure them out. The irony of this is: THEY ALL CHANGED DRASTICALLY DESPITE THE RESEARCH. (Now, they’re nothing like the “researched” versions were.) Go figure.
@crawfish I think I speak for a lot of people when I say this:
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I LOVE THEM
I just want a tl;dr of what dragon colors and styles mean, since I haven’t read any Pern books.
@Tez said in Prove Tez Wrong:
@Jennkryst That explains a lot about my household, including the faking coughing and ‘boo, you whore’ earlier today.
aheh aheh i’m sick 
@hellfrog said in Prove Tez Wrong:
@Yam said in Prove Tez Wrong:
@helvetica Lmfao ahahaha
ETA: TO BE CLEAR to everyone Tez abuses me with love, don’t worry. She’s not a forum despot.
she’s a forum little teapot
You must now provide a labelled diagram of Tez the Teapot.
Please submit this to action #20526 in a timely manner.
A response involving Mrs. Potts from Beauty and the Beast (OG animated movie) will be automatically approved, because Angela Lansbury is 
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@InkGolem said in MU Peeves Thread:
Those ostentatiously self-impressed individuals who labor under the profoundly misguided delusion that composing sentences in this extravagantly baroque and needlessly loquacious fashion endows them with an aura of elevated intellect.
I’m reminded of a certain person who spoke in metaphor a while ago, who @Rathenhope won serious alt radar points for in calling out here.
I will not be invoking the name. I might accidentally start a horror movie subplot on here.
@Meg said in Prove Tez Wrong:
i have to come to you guys, hat in hand, and admit tez was right. short, but right.
and for that reason, i am rioting anyways.
So since you are apparently conceding this poll, I want to progress to the origin story of how the topic came up.
Because I have absolutely nothing better to do than make clips on Twitch and doze in my chair while lamenting my tweaked neck.
@Meg said in Prove Tez Wrong:
@dvoraen you’re not supposed to announce you’re playing each side. have you learned nothing.
Yes, but now everyone will question everything I do and try to find hidden meanings in it. Meaning I can take a nap and everyone will worry without me spending any calories on it the effort to get them that way.
:meow_devil:
(in theory)
@Pyrephox said in Prove Tez Wrong:
@bear_necessities said in Prove Tez Wrong:
@Pyrephox you’ve gone mad with power, I called it
I prefer to think of it as “gleeful with power”. I’m not mad about it at all.
My sense of wordplay demands that the admins retroactively post something like:
"I have so much power it’s why the forum server is still turned on. 
"
ETA - Also @Meg ilu and @Tez platonically, but I have to play every side here. Because that’s what I learned from both of you in Among Us.
@MisterBoring said in General Video Game Thread:
@Meg & @dvoraen If you both like PEAK, I would also recommend RV There Yet?, which is basically PEAK + chainsmoking + getting an RV to the top of the mountain.
I have watched a few people play it, but it seemed like the kind of game that would make me rage quit. lol
@Meg said in General Video Game Thread:
@dvoraen i’ve played PEAK! not with tez, but other friends. its a really fun game.
Oh I am sure you have had shades PEAK entertainment.
With murder.
Have you played REPO?
@Cobalt This is what happened to me with The Becoming. I had ideas, and a great intro scene, then my brain flatlined about MUing in general.
