My peeve today:

There’s nothing like trying out a new character and getting completely subsumed into the story of a new place to make you really, highly aware of how burned out you are at your old stomping ground. The disparity in activation energy is astounding.

Not to tmi but I have pneumonia, the doctor says I need to spend the next 3 days in bed, and I still wanna RP my idiot werewolf, but I can barely even manage to get up the gumption to log in and read mail on a place that has been my primary game since September 2016.

I’m tired and I’m sorry.

On this first night of hanukkah, I am celebrating a personal transition. I keep thinking about how, on a night when there is that famous story about oil that should have lasted for one night lasting miraculously for eight, I am leaving my job of eleven years for a better one. The oil burned a lot longer than it reasonably should have, and by the end of this year I am burned the fuck out, but now I’m escaping.

@eddie this ain’t a court of law, playing on a game is not a right, and you ain’t defending any innocents, pardner

But also that’s not how a court of law works

If you cannot trust the staffers on the game you’re on, consider leaving.

If you can trust the staffers on the game you’re on and you know that and are dealing with reactions in yourself that are not based on what is happening now, keep working on yourself.

Just try to be mindful of that and don’t blame the person trying to work with you now for shit some scumsucker did on X game 11 years ago.

Edit to add: I don’t think this is a problem now-staffers can actually fix. Coin is right that you shouldn’t be a dick but like… seriously, there is no one who can resolve someone’s anxieties about this except themselves.

Honestly, the ending times at Arx have been such a positive community experience. Even people that I’ve never really jived with - it doesn’t matter, everyone is in this together, I love watching all the big event scenes, seeing years of play hit these culminating points. Obviously nothing is perfect, but the feel of being part of a community and all of us caring about the same ending is really powerful and a great note for a game I’ve played on for a long time to go out on. Thanks to everyone for vibing.

P.S. BAT!!!

What evidence are you looking for here? Runescryer suspected someone of being DWOPP, indicated they thought it was DWOPP. Lithium came forward, says I was this person, I’m not DWOPP, how dare. Lithium definitely was the person who came forward and said I’m the person you’re saying is DWOPP and I’m not.

That doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with any gamerunner going “I don’t want to deal with these people anymore, let’s chuck them all out the door.” More gamerunners should do this.

P.S. literal laugh out loud at Macha getting banned for not leaving a thing alone when she’d been told to leave a thing alone

as previously stated, good day

I WANT TO PLAY BUT I DON’T WANT TO START OVER IN A NEW PLACE WHERE I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING

My 16 1/2 year old cat is gone and I don’t know how long it’s going to take me to be OK.

Good thing in mushing: other people reacting to a big dramatic thing you did as a big dramatic thing.

But, well, I told them I would wait for them to finish reviewing before I made any decisions, since that was their request. What they’ve demonstrated is that their review was conducted according to some bizarre internal metrics that banned @Narson for saying basically the same thing as @Meg who they rescinded the ban on, while simultaneously deciding that Ghost is a part of the community they want to keep but not @Roz or @tsar –

In short, a part of the community I will be putting behind me and not returning to.

But the attorney in me is super annoyed about the total absence of transparency and failure of standards or logic.

I am glad that the original wildly unjust ban was reversed, though.

I flaked off my last game and I guestimated a year ago. I am waiting in the wings to pounce on a couple that I know are in process of being built, but nothing in the intervening time has caught my interest enough to overcome my inertia.

I definitely had some very cool interactions at those giant Arx scenes where a lot of the RP was in tabletalk and then we interacted with what was going on in the wider scene. Not just on Arx either. And one time at a hatching an impression from the stands that wasn’t me but was very cool to interact with that would have been impossible without the places.

Or like-- party scenes where stuff from flows smoothly from tabletalk in and out, can totally happen. I can remember a couple of cool things like this from olden times. It just requires people not to be assholes.

I see both ways on the issue of scene disruption. Sometimes a scene should be disrupted because there’s a story reason to do so and it absolutely makes sense to Aragorn those doors open and smash your way in to what’s going on for drama and impact, and other times, I’m officiating a three-legged race for silly prizes and someone has shown up to be very angry at me because my planned event scene that has been calendared for weeks tonally clashes with a GMed emit from two hours ago where someone died.

I think it can absolutely be fun to do tabletalk about a large event scene, I do think that speaking in low voices about what is happening in the broader scene can have value and develop story in and of its own right, and I don’t want to either spam the main scene with my amazing jokes OR feel compelled to try and throw a grenade in order to disrupt the flow of what’s going on. I’ve had a lot of fun playing a smaller scene inside a larger scene! I would have been super self-conscious being on my bullshit in front of all 50 people that were in the room as opposed to the 7 who were at my bench!

@Yam I like them when there is a scene going on that it is my IC role to watch. Watching by itself is boring but kibbitzing privately with people at the same table as me is fun. It is a pain in the ass to log though.

I don’t find it very useful when all it does is put stuff at the beginning of a pose, though. I get why it exists but my brain is inherently cluttered so it doesn’t work well for me.

@Faraday CUTE!!

I’m partway through the Inevitable Ruin right now. I’ve got to drive across the state for work in a couple weeks and am a little worried I am going to run out of books before the next one comes out.

@junipersky a friend of mine recently recced that and I have been listening to the audios a lot. I LOVE DONUT

I also don’t like movie night scenes but that’s just conceptual because it is inherently uninteractive to me to rp about watching a thing. RP that took place AFTER a movie night with a big dumb pillow fight or that interrupted a movie night with rocket launchers would be fine.

I can think of several ways to make mail sorting impactful or fun especially if there’s a war on.

I either stick forever or flake and wander off. I’m not sure the conditions around these things are definable even to me.

@KarmaBum Yes! That is the only way I ever found anywhere on Shattered while I existed there, because at that time I was no longer using a client much for a variety of reasons.