My peeve today:

There’s nothing like trying out a new character and getting completely subsumed into the story of a new place to make you really, highly aware of how burned out you are at your old stomping ground. The disparity in activation energy is astounding.

Not to tmi but I have pneumonia, the doctor says I need to spend the next 3 days in bed, and I still wanna RP my idiot werewolf, but I can barely even manage to get up the gumption to log in and read mail on a place that has been my primary game since September 2016.

I’m tired and I’m sorry.

@eddie this ain’t a court of law, playing on a game is not a right, and you ain’t defending any innocents, pardner

But also that’s not how a court of law works

On this first night of hanukkah, I am celebrating a personal transition. I keep thinking about how, on a night when there is that famous story about oil that should have lasted for one night lasting miraculously for eight, I am leaving my job of eleven years for a better one. The oil burned a lot longer than it reasonably should have, and by the end of this year I am burned the fuck out, but now I’m escaping.

If you cannot trust the staffers on the game you’re on, consider leaving.

If you can trust the staffers on the game you’re on and you know that and are dealing with reactions in yourself that are not based on what is happening now, keep working on yourself.

Just try to be mindful of that and don’t blame the person trying to work with you now for shit some scumsucker did on X game 11 years ago.

Edit to add: I don’t think this is a problem now-staffers can actually fix. Coin is right that you shouldn’t be a dick but like… seriously, there is no one who can resolve someone’s anxieties about this except themselves.

Honestly, the ending times at Arx have been such a positive community experience. Even people that I’ve never really jived with - it doesn’t matter, everyone is in this together, I love watching all the big event scenes, seeing years of play hit these culminating points. Obviously nothing is perfect, but the feel of being part of a community and all of us caring about the same ending is really powerful and a great note for a game I’ve played on for a long time to go out on. Thanks to everyone for vibing.

P.S. BAT!!!

What evidence are you looking for here? Runescryer suspected someone of being DWOPP, indicated they thought it was DWOPP. Lithium came forward, says I was this person, I’m not DWOPP, how dare. Lithium definitely was the person who came forward and said I’m the person you’re saying is DWOPP and I’m not.

That doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with any gamerunner going “I don’t want to deal with these people anymore, let’s chuck them all out the door.” More gamerunners should do this.

P.S. literal laugh out loud at Macha getting banned for not leaving a thing alone when she’d been told to leave a thing alone

as previously stated, good day

I WANT TO PLAY BUT I DON’T WANT TO START OVER IN A NEW PLACE WHERE I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING

My 16 1/2 year old cat is gone and I don’t know how long it’s going to take me to be OK.

Good thing in mushing: other people reacting to a big dramatic thing you did as a big dramatic thing.

But, well, I told them I would wait for them to finish reviewing before I made any decisions, since that was their request. What they’ve demonstrated is that their review was conducted according to some bizarre internal metrics that banned @Narson for saying basically the same thing as @Meg who they rescinded the ban on, while simultaneously deciding that Ghost is a part of the community they want to keep but not @Roz or @tsar –

In short, a part of the community I will be putting behind me and not returning to.

But the attorney in me is super annoyed about the total absence of transparency and failure of standards or logic.

I am glad that the original wildly unjust ban was reversed, though.

I voted for “just fuck me up,” because if I trust the GM, that’s generally where I’m at. I have a few absolute hard “nos” (and I have… even rped around one or two of them with a GM that I trusted) but generally speaking, the bad stuff happening to PCs is where a lot of the development comes from.

But like, I’m not a magical unicorn and if something bad happens to my PC that feels unearned or like it doesn’t belong in the story I’m sure I’ll still probably be upset.

Yea it’s exactly the same as getting scammed by AI, sorry. I’m being scammed. You are tricking me into interacting with AI. It doesn’t matter to me at all that my time instead of money is being wasted. It’s the same basic betrayal either way.

This is specifically re: text, not images. I’ve used AI images before - made by other people because I lack the knack for prompts, not because of moral authority or whatever. I probably won’t again, because the more this stuff becomes pervasive the less comfortable I get with it. I have taken an AI image and brought it to a flesh and blood artist and paid them to draw a character based on it, though, and I felt okay about that.

Re: text, that is the meat of the thing.

On this first night of hanukkah, I am celebrating a personal transition. I keep thinking about how, on a night when there is that famous story about oil that should have lasted for one night lasting miraculously for eight, I am leaving my job of eleven years for a better one. The oil burned a lot longer than it reasonably should have, and by the end of this year I am burned the fuck out, but now I’m escaping.

@Tez can confirm you have had to tell my dumb ass to knock shit off and I never thought of it as a warning. Just oh god I’ve embarrassed my friend by behaving badly on her game in a perceivable way.

everyone get fucked*

*unless you would rather not, really it is a personal choice

Like I can ask someone to leave my table for any reason and you can choose not to play at my table for any reason. One of the reasons I don’t staff anymore is I spend all my grace for my job and I don’t have a lot to get shit on as a volunteer anymore. So now I don’t even HAVE a table.

Never regretted a ban. Have regretted not banning.

In my experience the amount of grace I am prepared to give others is directly proportional to the grace I receive. Yet the numbers inherent in the math of staff to player ratio renders it almost impossible for this trade to feel fair.

@junipersky I am glad you’re finally through. Appeals very rarely do anything in these cases.

@junipersky unfortunately this is the nature of the whole system. It’s incredibly slow and inefficient because trying to handle the intimate details of family life through an adversarial process is really stupid. We just don’t know what else to do so we try to force square pegs through round holes.