When people don’t understand basic thematic elements, can’t handle any kind of pushback, and spend all their time bitching about a person putting up so much as a shred of ‘no, thanks’.

I left my job of many years for a much better job but holy shit am I tired all of the time now. I just want to not be tired. I want to feel like I’m not scraping the bottom of the barrel for my creativity. I want to feel like I’m not falling into the FOMO pit.

I know it’s temporary and that by September I’ll probably be in a good groove and things won’t be as draining, but GD. I have so few hobbies and this is one of them, lol.

All I could do was laugh at seeing that my ban was permenant. I’ve never been banned anywhere in 20 years of MUing. I never even had a “serious” conversation about my behavior. No warnings. I’m as interesting or scandalous as toasted white bread with nothing on it.

But I’m banned for asking why Gany didn’t just lock some threads or step away. Makes sense.

Now and again just slammed full force with how deeply you just can’t and it’s not anything specific. Just. A. Big. Mental. Nope.

@Gashlycrumb said in MU Peeves Thread:

ie, having a life.

not just specific to this but lol can we stop using this as something to bludgeon one another with

everyone has a life

unless you are not alive

even then you have an afterlife!!

I had surgery about a month ago now that has really just jacked my whole life up as I recover. But this weekend I met up with a pair of MU friends and it was a really nice reminder that things are OKAY and fun and enjoyable.

Shoutouts to:

@Tat For being consistently impressive with worldbuilding. I watch the way you put pieces together and then tear them out and then put them back in and it’s something that I wish I could do with anything nearing your quality level. Being able to work with, alongside, partial adjacent to you has really helped fuel a lot of my own growth, especially when it comes to constructively receiving feedback.

@Herja For being a terrific GM that comes up with excellent plot hooks and twists. For being a person constantly on the look out for new ways to catherd RPers and forward direction. For being a person willing to say “the line is here” which is frighteningly hard to do.

@Apos Someday we will let you out of the char gen mines.

But seriously thank you for all the jumping into the deep end on code you’re doing. It sounds terrifying.

@KarmaBum and also @bear_necessities For creating a series of fun games and being plain and straight forward about the type of weirdness they won’t tolerate on them (but for some reason continuing to let me in the door despite endless threats to RP watching Lord of the Rings ICly btw is that available to stream on Glitch asking for a friend).

I’m a working person with a full time job that just took on a side gig so I can get ahead, a parent, a spouse. Idk who has time to worry about other people’s friendships.

My internet friends are my friends. If I stopped being friends with them, I’d have a whole hell of a lot less friends and that just seems silly when you’re an adult and making friends is hard as hell???

I didn’t get a promotion at work despite being more prepared for the role because a man existed who was older than me.

Who had applied for a lower position? Not even the one I was applying for.

An external candidate.

When you are exhausted from major life changes and just winging everything but it seems to turn out at least okay.

I first started RPing by joining PernMUSH and posing into empty rooms.

“Banain sat down at the table and watched the other people eat.”

Eventually someone saw me on +watch and joined me, lol. That person introduced me to RP, explained how the commands worked, and is the reason I’m still bothering all of you today~

The couple of times I’ve run into someone using it, and was really convinced they were using it, it was done to make their writing longer and filled in.

But it was longer and full of fluff.

Just write the short pose. I beg. I’m tired. Don’t make me read all that, lol.

– will be ripped from my cold dead hands

@Jumpscare hahahah hahahah

I never know what the HELL is going on in these WoD threads, is this a WoD game?? But I’m fascinated anyway.

@Pavel Holy shit dude are you okay?

I had a fairly involved surgery in April to remove calcium deposits in my shoulder, and subsequently to repair my rotator cuff. It did an absolute number on me.

BUT.

Today, I went to feel the circumference of my upper arm and I can no longer almost GET MY FINGERS ALL THE WAY AROUND. It’s feeling like I have actual muscles there again which is like-- an absolute relief to experience.

@bear_necessities I do like the bizarre lol

@Ominous I tried to get into Frieren a few times but somehow it just didn’t click for me. I might try again in a couple of months. A lack of action doesn’t really bother me and lol I feel like these two shows I mentioned has made it seem like it’s more important to me than it is. Chainsaw Man had kind of too much? And there were times I had to rewind to be like “oh, I got distracted-- what happened here?”

I HAVE started watching the Apothecary Diaries and it’s so good. I’ve had it recommended to me a few other times and so I finally got into it after this post and yeah, it’s really good. The Cons are definitely on point for things to look out for, but I think the show handles it in a very mature way.

Multiple recs for Mob Psycho, so I’ll put that on my list too! After Apothecary Diaries and I guess my kid isn’t watching Demon Slayer with me and will instead re-watch Solo Leveling multiple times, lol.

@Snackness NOT SOON ENOUGH

@NotSanni said in Anime recs?:

I MAY HAVE BLOCKED THE TRAUMA OUT.

I guess I’m a glutton for trauma. To the list!