Hi, my name is RightMeow and I hyper focus.
I have done both. I have stayed until a game is done, the doors are closed and people are dismissed. I have also wandered away. I wish there was some magical reason that I left places or didn’t even start them when I looked into them. I think a lot has to do with time. When I first started, I was working from home. I had time. I didn’t have as many obligations as I do now. Now, I went back to school. I am in management with odd hours to fill gaps. I am investing in people around me far more and investing in a game sometimes just feels tiring.
Previous games I have left reasons (not games they didn’t do anything wrong).
I didn’t feel connected to the story line. I felt like it was done in a way that I couldn’t break into it, but only certain people could. They were quested out and only X number could quest out on it. No bad vibes to the people, for sanity one has to lock down the number - but then they progressed and I felt not so progressed and then lost on how to get into it without seeming like a pest.
The game closed while I was on my annual holiday hiatus (I work retail management - I’m barely eating and sleeping let alone hobby-ing).
I adored the people I was playing with, but the game runners had a very very very specific vision in their heads about how the game should be run and how characters should act. It felt more like a novel than an interactive performance. It was also locked to 1:1 time and you had to achieve certain things in age, experience, etc that a young rostered char would take RL years to even break into. It was disheartening, but while there was story - I could overlook it. Then all the people I was writing stories with left.
However, that said. I do try to stay around until I can’t (I even check in at Arx from time to time). This also shadows who I am as a fundamental person though. I have a hard time giving up on people and always thinking they changed, etc. So that is more who I am then the game I’ve hyperfocused and locked in on.
Leaving just tends to be that I respect they can run the game how they see fit and I respect myself to know when it won’t work out for me. — although, I adore and miss writing stories with you. Even when someone gives dark visions of my poor teddy bear being ripped apart like a monster. (haha)
I think another struggle for me is the platform. I feel with Ares, it’s hard for me to ‘walk the grid’ and come across organic random RP. It’s scheduled and it’s strange for me (I’m old) to ask to join as I still sort of view them as private scenes and I tend to respect people want to play with their people.