My new desc:
Felt cute, might delete later.
I still stand by your sexy factor, etc is less PB and more RP. Sure, sure your PB can be great or whatever, but if you can build a story with me? Chef’s kiss.
If you can make me cry (not in the bad way), and laugh, and fall in love with the story; that is the sexiest element. I’ll probably breeze over your desc to know how tall and things I might need to notice, but then take my cues from how you pose.
Also, all body types are gorgeous and I’m glad they are out there.
Messily with lots of four letter words. Ouch included
MU peeve – I’m not on a MU playing.
Also MU peeve – I don’t think I have the time/energy for a new game.
Additional MU peeve – Meeting new people to RP with is either really super fun or really really really stressful.
That is all. Carry on. Just my weekly random comment to stay part of the community.
Self peeve of the day - two actually.
I’m going to really commit to being healthy — 2 hours later – oh hey, chips.
I’m going to be an adult and follow a budget. I’m super excited about this. — Sure, let’s go to dinner. Hmm, I don’t need that thing, but I think I’ll buy it anyways.
I’d like to blame my ADHD and the serotonin, but I think it’s just me and it’s really frustrating some days. I know I can do better about it, but you know… I don’t. Or let’s focus on getting a good night’s sleep and going to bed at a great time — while posting on a forum at 11:50pm.
Sorry, carry on. Just venting at the void about my life decisions.
I feel like we need a list for everything and explanations. Release the truth about cats.
I miss RPing. I’ve filled my hours with other things, but I miss logging on and writing stories with people. I also miss the daily chatting with people I use to chat with about random stuff.
However, the idea of making a new character makes me feel like I don’t have the mental energy. Then I’m not sure how well my RP will be after the ‘break’ I’ve been on.
Anyways, in conclusion – if we’ve RPed at all, you’ve been on my mind and you rock - so thank you for writing stories with me.
RL Peeve is domain change. Not that it’s changing, but that I’m going to have to try and remember my password.
I know I did this to myself and really it’s a board peeve and not a MU* peeve. But damn. I want my last X amount of minutes back in my life from reading all that.
carry on.
I did this to myself. Self board peeve.
I know this is a first world problem and people have it way way way worse but…
I am over my current career. However, the idea of changing it makes me tired. The idea of finding a new job is annoying because I’m at a certain pay range that I don’t really want to lose. I don’t hate it, but I’m burned out in it. I feel too old to start something else (and probably too tired now). I just feel stuck.
Like I said, not the worst vent to have but it’s where I am.
Lumpia.
I’m on the quest to learn how to make it properly. I tried today and it tastes good, but I couldn’t get the skins to brown. I used rice paper. Anyone know how to make it and have suggestions?
Should this go in another area? I’m just happy it mostly worked out since I LOVE lumpia.
When asking for RP. I (like others) go through a lot of mental taxation without always getting RP representation.
Me: I’d like to play.
Me: I should ask for play.
Me: What if I get silence back?
Me: Does that mean everyone hates me? They might. Maybe I don’t have RP right now because my RP sucks. Should I ask? Would that be invasive to their RL and free time? Does it look like I’m bothering anyone if I ask on channel? Okay, you can do this. Come on. You are fine. Let’s do this. You can do this. Is their char currently involved in anything? Should I ask? Will it mess with their story? What if I get too many people and then I have to bail? Um… no no, it’s okay you can do this.
Me: Hey, would you like to RP?
Them: Sure, what do you want to RP?
Me: …
Me: Fuck.
So in very long conclusion, it’s not that I want the other person to do the work. It’s more I don’t know what story they like or what they are interested in. If it’s someone I know, then I’m different. Then I’m like let’s RP this. New people though, I’m like wuhoh. Do I only have one shot to make a suggestion and I lose RP partners for life?
I know this is just a meh sort of thing and it effects everyone, but still. I’m tired. All the time. Like mentally and emotionally tired. I am really good at masking (which I suppose also makes me mentally and emotionally tired), but dang.
I don’t know if this is older getting to me. I remember those people sitting around the table talking about being tired. Now I’m those people. Or if it’s depression. Or just you know how it is.
It’s not ending my life, but it is killing my motivation to do anything.
That’s it. I’m just tired.
Having a meh week. Coming home. Sitting down (that in itself is a win) and then having furry critters on you. One snuggled in and one purring because they missed you.
I feel like (and this is my opinion not a fact) if you don’t trust someone leave. I mean that in games, in life, in relationships, in jobs, in all things. The older I get (and man is it older) the less time I have to give. I want to fill that time with people I trust. People that don’t make me second guess all the time (I have brain weasels there will be a few off moments).
It does NOT mean that the person isn’t trustworthy if I don’t trust them. It does not mean they are a bad person. It does not mean I am a bad person. Sometimes people and situations (especially in text) don’t mesh. That means, I stand by the ‘if you don’t trust them, leave’ statement. I don’t see it as a blanket to cover an issue. I think it a boundary to protect your time and your mental investment.
This is again, only my opinion.
And this is why I don’t Discord and am selective about what I share, etc.
Esme would have had to do so many composure checks.
So Rostered Characters …
What twists/alterations/etc did you make that was not on the sheet but just became a thing for the char?
Esme was not sheeted to be a zealot, but I kind of took it and ran. It started as a joke and then it just grew from there.
Also the fact she couldn’t lie to anyone while looking at them. Her eyes were her tell. I did that because (hate it or not) I could get purple in my pose and wanted something the other person could react to in case I forgot to say something or give an indication in the pose. As her eyes always broadcast what she was thinking/feeling.
Magic obviously too. What was yours? I like to hear the personal spins on rostered/non-OC characters.