It’s funny, the only time I ever PKed, I felt like shit for a week afterward, even though the player was seemingly okay with the outcome. I’d been in PVP situations a few times before and since, but just deleting someone’s character in one roll was rough. IC he fully deserved it, the player even agreed, but I didn’t like how it made me feel.
Fast forward some 15 years and the game where I was playing a genuine honest good guy type, that’s the game 2 different people OOC accused me of wanting their characters dead and ran to the ST for safety. The thought had never crossed my mind regarding them. Most amusingly the one character I’d have been happy to bump off didn’t even realize IC or OOC that she was the one person on my list and came about one sentence away from flying lead.
It’s all good though, cause I’m free and she’s still in her self-made pit.