Took kiddo to the fair last night. She is too tall now for the little kid rides. I hoped we had one more year.

What do you dream about?

Edit: AKA, your nighttime hallucinations.

@RightMeow lol

I had a dream that @RightMeow and @tsar and I all joined a game.

It was like a mystery sandbox. We all created characters. @tsar was the male hero, @RightMeow was the desperately tragic heroine, and I was playing a cop who never rose above basic level cop. We ended up buddy-copping to solve a murder the rest od rhe city decided to pretend didn’t exist.

And I was sad it didn’t actually exist.

I loved the baked-in family connections and the amazing roster. I had a little tribe to start with, and while it took me a bit to feel 100% comfortable in Norwood and Kenna’s skins, I always felt like I gad the freedom to make them mine.

There was a Terry Pratchett Discworld game that I really loved but it didn’t last too long. I wish it was still there.

We got word that kiddo’s parents appeal was denied. I am happy but also… so freaking sad. And mad? Like, how the hell can her parents not move mountains to get this amazing little girl (and her equally amazing siblings) back? She is my whole world right now. I love her beyond words. I can not wait to have her open to adopt so she know she will have a stable home for absolutely forever. I don’t care we still have times where she hits and kicks me. That is trauma and why we have family and individual therapy.

I also found out I owe my sister-in-law. Husband comes from a dysfunctional family. His father was a casualty of the opioid epidemic, and they went through a ton because of it. He never believed he could be a father which led to his reluctance to start this process. She sat him down and said that he could have me and get on the boat of fostering, or I would find some other way without him. He got on board and now he and kiddo have the best bond. She adores him and they giggle and play.

So peeve, that I’m still mad at parents, but also joy because I get to be in this girl’s life.

@Roz

I totally gave Norwood a point at least once (probably more) mid scene because I desperately wanted to try to be better at something. I regret nothing because I never did succeed at a roll I spent XP on. Even if I can’t remember what the skill was now the high in the moment stays.

(Me thinking hard says might have been ride when Norwood was trying to save Cristoph Then he epicly fell of his horse and it was amazing. Regardless I crunched that skill till I got it to 6 because fuck if Norwood was EVER going to let himself fail that badly again.)

Okay but - wait what?

Wouldn’t it make more sense to just… not allow the XP in the first place to be earned quicker than skills can be learned rather than give it and then tell people they can’t use it!??

I’m so befuddled by this concept.

wait why would someone limit spending XP.

@Pyrephox

This was exactly it!! If we had known she was going to be late (45 minutes late, I texted after 10 minutes to verify we didn’t have the wrong time and she replied she got the time weont and would be a “little late”) we might have gone out for lunch. >.>

People being late for appointments but not calling or texting ahead to let us know.

A long time. But Apos posted that Arx II is a thing and I’m suddenly wanting back in. Kiddo is a little older and not so needy. Maybe I could?

@Trashcan said in Long or Short? Application Process!:

@Babs said in Long or Short? Application Process!:

Just reuse the same description. Chances are no one will notice.

Chances are no one will say anything to you.

THIS IS WHY. I KNOW I WILL BE SILENTLY JUDGED BY ALL YOU ASSHOLES*.

(*I say affectionately.)

I don’t like having to make stats. I like writing a bit of backstrory.

Descriptions can kiss my ass.

I REALLY struggled not to my guy a lot. Two of my heart characters were older men (late 40s, 50s) who were generally conservative af and not generally open to new anything. To a lot of things my first thought was literally " X would NEVER…" Then I had to sit myself down and go, “But is the never fun for anyone?” Sometimes it was, but most of the time it wasn’t. Sometimes the conflict of new ideas vs old ideas was great. I had some excellent scenes with their children where they wanted to be wild and out there with a father behind them going “This isn’t right!!!” Other times that conflict was going to kill the vibe.

Over time both mellowed a lot. I would like to think they didn’t lose their core conservative root, but they saw a ton more gray when I stepped away. That was fun too.

Sometimes I feel bad having the Administrator title here when I haven’t RPed in 2+ years.

But then again ya’ll aren’t a very hard group.

Um, um, UM?!

I was generally a shorter poster. 1-6 lines. If I could get by with less, I did, because I wanted to keep things snappy.

As I drew closer to the end of my Mu* career the less I could cope with people who took a half-hour + to pose their three massive paragraphs I ended up only responding to a little of.

I think that was more me just having more on my plate than before though.

@sao

I’m literally obsessed.