@Bessarion said in MU Peeves Thread:
I did it because I was afraid. I did it because I am trying to keep my cortisol levels down because I’m in the middle of fertility treatments and I selfishly didn’t want to have this conversation.
So whatever, I’ll say something, because I’m going to tell you to stop at this point. Because you’re getting wound up. And I’m telling you, stop.
When you apologized to me, I forgave you. I considered the matter closed. But I didn’t forget, decided it would be easier to keep my distance and be polite, and that’s the thing. I never held animosity, but trusting was a bit harder, I’ll admit that.
But also? The only person you’re beholden to is yourself. You’re not responsible for how I choose to feel after it. It’s on me to change my opinion. That’s it. Full stop. You don’t owe anyone anything. You apologized, now you just have to live up to that, so at this point the only person you’re letting down is you. End of discussion. Don’t do better because you want to make amends, the amends will happen because you did indeed try to be better.
And if those people still can’t or won’t get over that? Fuck’em. Seriously, they’re going to think whatever they’re going to think and there’s no point or use in trying to do otherwise. You’re wasting both yours and their time, sad as it might seem, but there are more productive ways to apply your time, like your game, or simply focusing on you. It’s a hard thing to remember that not everyone is going to like each other in a hobby. That’s just the way it is. Not everyone here likes me, and I don’t lose sleep over it.
And that goes for anyone with a ‘rep’. You’re not here to appease everyone. You do what you can to be fair, but yeah, we’re going to screw up, and there isn’t not a single person on this forum who hasn’t been an absolute shitheel to someone at some point. You can either be better and the situation will eventually just be set aside, or people will hold a grudge for whatever reason, justified reasons or not. But again, you’re not beholden to that.
Was it a mistake to hide yourself again? Yeah, probably it was. I really hope you’re honest in trying to improve and better yourself. I really sincerely do. I hope you can shove this in my face at a later date and I’ll eat crow on it.
Be better, but be better for yourself. Anyone who doesn’t like that? Fuck’em.