Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent

Pavel

@RightMeow In seriousness, I applaud your strength to acknowledge past missteps and your ability to take responsibility for them rather than taking the easy path and blaming the disorder. Well done.

sao

@RightMeow Honestly, I relate hard to this. Now if I could just remember to take my meds every day I bet I would relate to it even more.

RightMeow

@sao

LOL - the irony of this is – I forgot to take my meds today.

sao

@RightMeow there was a meme going around the book of faces about how ADHD people lack the ability to form habits when we aren’t taking our meds so then we don’t take our habit-forming medication to form the habit of taking our meds and I was like

I’m in this picture and I don’t like it

Meg

@RightMeow as someone who once had to be pulled aside by staff on a game about how my internet ‘tone’ was coming off, and I’m not even ADHD, I sympathize so much with this. I don’t think we played together, but hopefully those that played with you and might have felt any offense will see this!

Also, I’m glad you are getting help!

RightMeow

@Pavel

Thank you. I figure that just because I didn’t know, doesn’t mean I didn’t do it. I can’t undo it either, so it’s just moving forwards. My hope is anyone that I left a sour taste in their mouth, they realize it was all me (and my brain) and I really, really, really did not mean it personal and I did not mean to offend.

When I do mean to offend, I own that too.

BloodAngel

@RightMeow YAY! Glad to hear you are doing better!

L. B. Heuschkel

I’m about to get tested for ADHD. If it turns out I have it, I will hunt you down, @RightMeow, for advice. I am so clueless.

Pavel

@L-B-Heuschkel Don’t worry. So are most medical professionals.

hellfrog

@L-B-Heuschkel said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:

I’m about to get tested for ADHD. If it turns out I have it, I will hunt you down, @RightMeow, for advice. I am so clueless.

I (and my psych provider) swear by How to ADHD on youtube. Very digestible, helpful, and relatable.

Pavel

@hellfrog Could you post a link? That title seems vague enough to feature many options.

hellfrog

Absolutely!

How to ADHD Channel

L. B. Heuschkel

@hellfrog Thank you. I’ll definitely take a look at it. It’d be ironic to get diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 51, after all these years of being called lazy, stupid, and unfocused.

hellfrog

@L-B-Heuschkel said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:

@hellfrog Thank you. I’ll definitely take a look at it. It’d be ironic to get diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 51, after all these years of being called lazy, stupid, and unfocused.

I got diagnosed at 39 and IDK you but just from that sentence alone, I say: welcome.

Just knowing was a big help on its own, to start unlearning all that internalized criticism. It’s a process.

L. B. Heuschkel

@hellfrog Yeah. I’m kind of hoping because it’s been a long time since gave up on even going to college and frankly, I’m tired of it. I’m no dumber than the next person, I just have chronic fatigue and struggle to focus for long.

RightMeow

@hellfrog said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:

@L-B-Heuschkel said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:

@hellfrog Thank you. I’ll definitely take a look at it. It’d be ironic to get diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 51, after all these years of being called lazy, stupid, and unfocused.

I got diagnosed at 39 and IDK you but just from that sentence alone, I say: welcome.

Just knowing was a big help on its own, to start unlearning all that internalized criticism. It’s a process.

I just got diagnosed this year and I’m not young. So I feel this deeply. Someone posted this how to ADHD and you HAVE to watch it. It was like hearing my life that I couldn’t explain. It’s why I went and got diagnosed. Which was this year. You got this. We got you.

IoleRae

I used ‘How to ADD’ to get my boss diagnosed. I showed her the various videos (hey watch this for how my brain works) and she came back a while later and was like “so I went to my doctor…” with no tough conversations had. A++ do recommend them.

Floof

I was just wishing we had the ADHD thread again because I wanted to yell at someone that my insurance approved my assessment so I get to be assessed!

I was just reading some old livejournal posts recently, and I was an even more embarrassingly hot mess than I am now. I relate so much with wanting to apologize to the people who had to deal with me before I grew any sense of self awareness.

But also thank you to the people who could look at me and be like… yeah, I could friend that.

IoleRae

@Floof

I am so happy to hear about the assessment! I hope it goes well! I recommend enlisting the aid of a get-me-to-appt reminder buddy JUST IN CASE.

Testament

I saw Defones and Gojira last night. Didn’t get home till about 1am. I was sweaty, dirty with a slightly bloodied lip. I was exhausted, but had a great time. I didn’t realize I had so much pent up rage I had inside me that I had been holding in the last few months, especially this last month. And I just…got it all out. Or at least, a lot of it. All that pain and frustration. The anger. Every time I got shoved or elbowed or my feet stomped within the swirling, churning mass of bodies in the mosh pit. Another bit of everything I felt being expunged. Not only what I have dealt with in my life, but what I have dealt with by other people in the mushing community. There was, and I’ve felt it before, when your instincts kick in and you let your primal lizard brain do the driving.

I’m sore today. Very sore. Very bruised. My lip is swollen(it was accidental elbow to the face, the guy that did it felt really bad, it was a good crowd helping people up who fall down in the pit). My body is not what it once was when I was younger, getting black eyes at a Pantera concert.

I’m not better, but I feel better. Or rather, I feel better today. So much of the anger is gone, left behind with raving and howling in the exhilaration of overwhelming sound and bass that makes your entire body vibrate from soundwaves and reverb.

I hurt today, a lot, but it’s a hurt that’s okay.