MU Peeves Thread
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One of the difficulties in “starting over” in this hobby is that – if you have a big issue or something like that, the sort that would generally inspire someone to want a fresh start, you probably actually don’t at all know who does want to avoid you. You may know some obvious folk if you had overt OOC conversation about the fact, but in that sort of situation, there’s doubtless a number of other people who are actively avoiding on a quieter basis. So you can say that you’re avoiding the people who want you to avoid them, but the reality is that there’s just a big space there of the people you don’t know to avoid, even if you’re operating under good intentions of wanting to give people space.
@Bessarion said in MU Peeves Thread:
@KarmaBum And if I tried to even BREATHE as tek, I would have gotten roasted into the stratosphere. You know this to be true.
I actually think you may have been better served maybe taking a bit more time and actually returning under the same name. Sure, people who don’t want to play with you wouldn’t have joined your game, but that’s already what you want. At that point, you get folk who are comfortable trying out a game of yours, and you can get judged on how it goes. Rebuilding reputation takes time, but I think you may have done more damage to your efforts there with the multiple monikers.
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@Bessarion said in MU Peeves Thread:
If it ever happened that someone I knew didn’t want to interact with me made a character on my game, my plan was to just give them the same shot as anyone else and interact neutrally and fairly and only when necessary.
Ok but this is deceitful. People who don’t want to interact with you are not hoping you will give them a fair shot, they are hoping you will not hide who you are - so they can not interact with you.
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@sao @Roz Yeah. It was a misstep and miscalculation. But it was not done with any bad intentions. I’m not blaming my autism here, because I am more than just my neurotype, but I am very, very bad sometimes at predicting how people will react to things.
I did it because I was afraid. I did it because I am trying to keep my cortisol levels down because I’m in the middle of fertility treatments and I selfishly didn’t want to have this conversation. I thought I could just do my thing and do better and disappear into Bessarion and leave tek behind. It was a miscalculation, and I fucked up.
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@Bessarion said in MU Peeves Thread:
And if I tried to even BREATHE as tek, I would have gotten roasted into the stratosphere.
@Roz said in MU Peeves Thread:
Rebuilding reputation takes time
It may not be what you want to hear, but it is nonetheless true. We all have reps. All those reps are a mixed bag, and you have to accept that. This hobby is too small and has been going on too long to try to get away with this nonsense.
Six months from now, if your game is still going strong and you haven’t gone batshit? That will kick so much ass, because a zombie game would be cool AF!!
But you have to accept that you just reset the timer on that by lying me. That’s part of your rep now.
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@Roz said in MU Peeves Thread:
I actually think you may have been better served maybe taking a bit more time and actually returning under the same name.
@sao said in MU Peeves Thread:
@Bessarion I actually think you would have had better luck as tek than as pretending to be someone else.
I actually think this was fine.
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@hellfrog Yeah. I fucked up. I framed it as “me being the bigger person” when I was trying to navigate this, because the way I was thinking about it was this – you folks don’t know me from Adam. If I ran into you on the street, you’d have no idea. You don’t know me as a person. You do know the behaviors of mine that you have seen. I figured that if I wasn’t behaving that way and if I was not trying to buddy up to people who I knew didn’t like me, I was doing good.
I did not set out to be actively deceitful. That was not my intention. However, effects are effects regardless of intention, and I seem to have made people upset and uncomfortable with my actions. I am sincerely sorry.
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@Bessarion If all of this is sincere, and a mistake, etc – why do you have a rule on your game against doing this exact thing that you appear to be doing?
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@sao The intention of the rule is about lying about who you are to try and get close with and interact closely with people who don’t want to interact with you, a la DownWithOPP. I was not doing that. I was playing with new players to help them get accustomed to the grid. I was playing with my friends who had apped there.
On Shattered, I was specifically avoiding people who I knew didn’t want anything to do with me. I was not buddying up to them. I joined to play with my own friend circle who is playing there.
If I had been trying to get in with KB and their crew or sidle up to someone else who doesn’t like me, that would be a different story.
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@Bessarion Real advice: Stop replying at this point.
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@KarmaBum I will. I just wanted to make clear that my intentions are good and that I don’t have anything to hide, and clarify this misunderstanding of my rule and how I perceived the tenor of my own actions. I was also afraid that if someone asks me a direct question and I don’t answer, I would start being accused of more duplicity and I was having a hard time navigating how to handle that.
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@Bessarion said in MU Peeves Thread:
I did it because I was afraid. I did it because I am trying to keep my cortisol levels down because I’m in the middle of fertility treatments and I selfishly didn’t want to have this conversation.
So whatever, I’ll say something, because I’m going to tell you to stop at this point. Because you’re getting wound up. And I’m telling you, stop.
When you apologized to me, I forgave you. I considered the matter closed. But I didn’t forget, decided it would be easier to keep my distance and be polite, and that’s the thing. I never held animosity, but trusting was a bit harder, I’ll admit that.
But also? The only person you’re beholden to is yourself. You’re not responsible for how I choose to feel after it. It’s on me to change my opinion. That’s it. Full stop. You don’t owe anyone anything. You apologized, now you just have to live up to that, so at this point the only person you’re letting down is you. End of discussion. Don’t do better because you want to make amends, the amends will happen because you did indeed try to be better.
And if those people still can’t or won’t get over that? Fuck’em. Seriously, they’re going to think whatever they’re going to think and there’s no point or use in trying to do otherwise. You’re wasting both yours and their time, sad as it might seem, but there are more productive ways to apply your time, like your game, or simply focusing on you. It’s a hard thing to remember that not everyone is going to like each other in a hobby. That’s just the way it is. Not everyone here likes me, and I don’t lose sleep over it.
And that goes for anyone with a ‘rep’. You’re not here to appease everyone. You do what you can to be fair, but yeah, we’re going to screw up, and there isn’t not a single person on this forum who hasn’t been an absolute shitheel to someone at some point. You can either be better and the situation will eventually just be set aside, or people will hold a grudge for whatever reason, justified reasons or not. But again, you’re not beholden to that.
Was it a mistake to hide yourself again? Yeah, probably it was. I really hope you’re honest in trying to improve and better yourself. I really sincerely do. I hope you can shove this in my face at a later date and I’ll eat crow on it.
Be better, but be better for yourself. Anyone who doesn’t like that? Fuck’em.
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@Bessarion you’re being disingenuous and it is bothering me that you keep @ting KB when I was the one who called you out, I am the one on Shattered, and I am the one who doesn’t want anything to do with you.
Good luck with your game. I hope you can prove everyone wrong. This isn’t a great start to it.
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@bear_necessities to be fair, aren’t you and @KarmaBum basically the same person just like @tsar and @Snackness?
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@sao We’re married with 12 children but also the same person so yes this is pretty accurate
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@bear_necessities Honestly? I get the two of you mixed up in my head. Don’t attribute to malice what is best attributed to me being an idiot. And I don’t want anything to do with you, either.
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@bear_necessities is my sock-puppet
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@KarmaBum @bear_necessities One of my favorite running jokes on early GH was how you guys had the exact same schedule and would almost always log on at the same time, despite being far away from one another.
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@KarmaBum dammit YOU are the sock puppet not me, I am a bear in a bat suit.
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@Pyrephox It was funny TO YOU GUYS.
We were over here like “omg I think I lived like a mile away from there but two years earlier”
and “lol that was also my dog’s name how weird”
and eventually “holy fuck, how do our children who were born in different states still have the same furniture - AND IT’S NOT LIKE FROM A CHAIN-STORE, it’s random furniture that I got from a furniture store that I had never been to ever before in my life”
and now finally it’s fine, someone else also has my life, we can’t all be originals
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@KarmaBum Now I feel like if we ever saw a photo of you two, it’d be like…ALMOST the same photo, but with enough unsettling details different that it just wigs the viewer out.
