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Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent
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@junipersky said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:
I feel bad that I’m super grateful little foster child is in school today while I’m home on my spring break.
All parents feel this. Most parents feel guilty about feeling this. But it’s absolutely normal. Parenting is work - rewarding, no doubt, but work nonetheless. And we all need breaks from work.
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insurance approved TMS therapy. here goes nuthin.’
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I am so exhausted I want to cry.
My spouse has insomnia regularly. And since paramedics shattered his shoulder 10 months ago, he is in constant sporadic pain. It is so so hard to sleep next to someone who keeps twitching and murmuring, especially when you know they’re taking comfort from your presence.
But I woke up an hour before my alarm and I have a headache already from the stress and I have to go to work and I’m so tired from his restlessness. I want a hug.
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As someone who also sleeps next to someone with chronic insomnia, I feel for you. It’s so exhausting.
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County offices and everything takes so damn long on their end, but when they need something and you don’t jump through every hoop you are called uncooperative. Even when it’s hoops they have only told you about and not set up yet. Meanwhile watching your child wait on important help they need because of it.
Words. Cannot. Express. My. Rage.
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You don’t have a fever nor are you throwing up.
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I know this is just a meh sort of thing and it effects everyone, but still. I’m tired. All the time. Like mentally and emotionally tired. I am really good at masking (which I suppose also makes me mentally and emotionally tired), but dang.
I don’t know if this is older getting to me. I remember those people sitting around the table talking about being tired. Now I’m those people. Or if it’s depression. Or just you know how it is.
It’s not ending my life, but it is killing my motivation to do anything.
That’s it. I’m just tired.
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@RightMeow said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:
That’s it. I’m just tired.
The biggest thing impacting people, both (diagnosed) mentally ill and not, who see me professionally (am therapist, much counselling, wow) is just…
The world be the way it is, and it’s shit for a lot of us. You’re definitely not alone in feeling the way you do. I’ve got all these tools and all this training, and it still just sucks.
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@RightMeow I have felt this the past two months, my motivation is gone lately and all I want to do is sleep. I keep putting one foot in front of the other, but sometimes I just don’t want to.
I hope things look up for you, and motivation returns sooner rather than later.
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I do not enjoy my schedule forcing me to cram the RP in but such is life.
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Oh my God.
Okay.
So, the whole country is I guess in a public defender shortage right now but I am only really aware of it in so far as it impacts me personally, which is a lot. I work indigent defense as a contractor in a rural county. There are only two of us left because everyone else either quit or retired. I work a lot! I work more than I used to. I never think I work enough, but all my colleagues say I work too much.
I won’t go into the details too much here, but basically, I’m at capacity. They can’t give me any more work. Somehow every time I close a case, I agree to take on another one which somehow becomes 2 or 3. Anytime a client that I have an active case with commits another crime (excuse me, is alleged to have committed another crime) I get their new one too. They recently added a third attorney so there will be 3 of us instead of 2, and they’ve hired some “overflow” contractors to help get us out of this mess to take on a limited number of clients (at a substantially higher rate of pay than I am contracted for, which… is … going to come up when we renegotiate these contracts later this year but never mind).
This post is not about how broken this is.
This post is because a thing just happened to me that I was so mad about that one discord rant about it was not enough.
This lady contacted me via 3 text messages and a voicemail over the past two days, asking me to represent her son who is incarcerated. She explained that he was really upset by something that the overflow attorney working his case said to him, so could I represent him instead. I explained that I am at capacity right now so it would be pretty unfair for me to take on paid cases. She basically explained that she hadn’t intended to pay me, she just wanted her precious baby to get to pick his public defender off the fucking department store rack.
If I ever meet this lady in person, I am going to punch her in the throat.
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@sao said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:
If I ever meet this lady in person, I am going to punch her in the throat.
You do that and you may require a public defender…and with a shortage, wouldn’t that be your competitors?
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@Kassien I’m afraid I wouldn’t qualify for a public defender!
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Another school year (year 14) has passed. I’m feeling really meh about it. My position this year was half of two different teams, and that made it hard to really integrate anywhere. My relationships with kids were way more shallow then I would like.
Just leaving me flat.
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I know this is a first world problem and people have it way way way worse but…
I am over my current career. However, the idea of changing it makes me tired. The idea of finding a new job is annoying because I’m at a certain pay range that I don’t really want to lose. I don’t hate it, but I’m burned out in it. I feel too old to start something else (and probably too tired now). I just feel stuck.
Like I said, not the worst vent to have but it’s where I am.
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@RightMeow If you ever feel like just ranting at somebody and venting, you know where to find me. Anytime.
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@RightMeow said in Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent:
I know this is a first world problem and people have it way way way worse but…
I am over my current career. However, the idea of changing it makes me tired. The idea of finding a new job is annoying because I’m at a certain pay range that I don’t really want to lose. I don’t hate it, but I’m burned out in it. I feel too old to start something else (and probably too tired now). I just feel stuck.
Like I said, not the worst vent to have but it’s where I am.
Kind of in the same place.
I’m not exactly over my current career, but the workplace has changed to where we’ve lost our big contracts that were meaning we weren’t having to do the funding scramble, and I hate the funding scramble. I want something with a bit more stability, and I want to leave on my terms before the funding runs out and I have no other options.
But I absolutely despite the job search, I also don’t want to lose my decent salary, or my progress towards student loan forgiveness. And I don’t feel like I can be as adventurous as I might otherwise be because my elderly father lives with me and I pay all the bills.
Also, I’m generally lonely and crushingly sad about various things, including the utter failure of my writing, so it’s just like every day is stumbling blindly, hoping not to get hit by any disasters but never really being happy.
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It’s coming to almost a year that I was fired from my six year career. In that same month, I came far closer to checking out early that I had in my life just by the stress that job caused me, which coincidentally is what got me let go.
I’m in an infinitely better job now and have been since October. An amazing manager, a good small team of coworkers that doesn’t have any interwork drama beyond shift griping. I’m not micromanaged, and I have a level of agency and freedom that I have no experienced in the workplace since, well, forever.
This has come at the cost of pay and some amount of stability. I didn’t expect taking a $5 paycut would hurt me and my spouse as much as it has. And this has put an additional level of stress on both of us, even if I can safety say that it’s not the kind of stress I was experiencing last year. I want to apply to a different position in this company, but there’s a one year waiting term for all new employees before trying to move into another department.
My spouse is going through a series of struggles that I will not go too mcuh into depth, but it involved having medical issues that have so far haven’t been able to be diagnosed properly, as well as trying to accept that because of our financial situation, we will likely not own a home or have kids.
I tell her she shouldn’t blame herself for that, we both had career setbacks for different reasons. I don’t think it really takes that kind of pain away, and I’m certainly not going to downplay it.
So overall, it’s been one mixed bag this last year. But I can’t help but often feel this sense of futility to it all.
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my school (out for the summer for the academic year program but with toddlers through 6th graders still in care for ‘summer camp’) just had to shut down and is now consolidating the programs to one campus with a higher staff visible presence and two weeks of police patrolling because a threat was called in. it is not considered high risk because a lot of schools have been hit with it and it did not come from a local source.
but still.
we did have a suspicious person show up lingering around the day before yesterday that I saw with my own eyes. He was escorted off property by our staff and that was later moved along further by police.
that is kind of what even early childhood educators have to deal with now.
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I hate when I can’t tell if I’m sick or not. I think I have a chills situation going on right now, amongst other fun, but all I’ve got to go on is “I feel different,” and not in a bad way. It’s like my body’s equilibrium is off and I’m sensing that, except I have no idea which way the scale is tilting.
