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    • RE: Neitherlands

      So… I really thought all of this shit was just done and over with. It’s been a month, and there’s been a lot of RL happening since, and plenty of other games. Once someone decided that me trying to say that @inuki didn’t deserve to be threatened was me beating a dead horse… I closed this thread and didn’t look back.

      But that’s before I woke up to three different DM’s in my Discord about Sophia, asking if I was back. Apparently, a month after being banned, and a month after having been moved to the ‘dead’ part of characters with a note that was just awful…

      Sophia lives again? At least long enough to have had her password changed so that scenes set private - and only to her - could be shared game-wide. WTF? How petty can shit get? @inuki - Any ACTUAL answers this time? I kind of thought you’d sunk as low as people can, and had found the hard rock bottom for game staff. But I guess you continue to surprise me!

      SophiaScreenshot.png

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: Unspeakables: The Politics Thread 2024

      Deals with very heavy physical health issues, please avoid is such topics are triggering for you.

      I’m on hospice. It’s excruciating and full of pain, terror, and stress. But those symptoms are very well managed by a team of medical professionals I deeply and truly trust. They all have my best interests at heart. It’s a horrible process, and I hate it with everything I have inside of me. But there are agencies and support systems doing their absolute best to provide all possible comfort and symptom control.

      I’m in a red state that has gone far redder as of this election, medicaid is openly on the chopping block during session one post-inauguration. Project 2025 has Medicare and Social Security on the chopping blocks. Currently, I’m lucky enough to be dying comfortably in my own home with all my comfort items, puts, and people. But if I lose my insurance and disability income? I’m looking at a very different end to my life some day, and that terrifies me to my core.

      posted in No Escape from Reality
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    • RE: Neitherlands

      @Warma-Sheen said in Neitherlands:

      You coming back to take more digs at @inuki kind of makes it seem like you’re just trying to bait her. She very obviously made a conscious decision not to do the thing you say you think she’s going to do, but you showed up to insinuate she’s gonna do it anyway while calling her a horrible person for it.

      I mean. You’re going to read things however you wish, and it’s clear how you wish to read these comments. But I am pretty certain that this is not me coming back to take digs. It was a month ago she banned me. I have not looked back. But when old friends page me on Discord to ask if I’m back behind Sophia’s keys? Yeah. I pulled the game site up Saturday to see wtf they meant. “Coming back to take digs” is when someone logs into someone else’s account, reads through their personal shit, and then posts scenes that had nothing to do with them.

      So I came by to ask if there was a reason for that. She’s clearly been by here since then, but there are no reasons for that. It’s not a dig at someone to point out that someone else is snooping through their things with massive abuses and violations of staff powers.

      I know she is an easy target which is why the thread has gone the way it is, but you’re just being a bully.

      Like I said. You’re clearly reading things how you want them to read, not from any factual stand-point. Pointing out what she does or doesn’t choose to do is not being a bully. It’s informing others on the playground that there’s someone near the swings trying to steal lunch money. It’s a suggestion that folks maybe stay out of the lines of that theft by playing on the jungle gym instead. This was dead, over, and far past done. I was not the one who decided two days ago that it should be opened back up again.

      Not to mentioned the part where you started telling other people that she was forcing your character to be sexually assaulted, which wasn’t true.
      She said “Go bigger on the curse. This is hell-realm (edited typo) torture. THink the worst you can imagine. go bigger after”

      You inferred sexual assault, then made it seem like she was forcing that on your character and you weren’t okay with it, without ever checking in on whether that was actually what was intended.

      Yeah. Hell realm. Worst torture you can imagine, then make that imagination infinitely worse… Maybe I just have too much imagination. Maybe she really didn’t mean to add that to the curse. But it does not at all mean it wasn’t implied, and that I was not CONSTANTLY paged in EVERY scene - even ones private because we didn’t want to deal with her, being told I wasn’t writing out that it was as severe as I should have been.

      I know I’m not the only person in the past to have suffered SA. I believe Inuki at face value that they have, too. But hurt people hurt people. Being harmed doesn’t mean you can’t harm others. But I find it a very large cognitive stretch to believe anyone who has suffered from SA in their past would not imagine that non-consentual subject matter would not be part of the worst that could be imagined.

      During the scenes of Sophia’s curse, she woke up the first night with coverable bruises. Was told go bigger. Obvious bruises she couldn’t cover, and injured enough she was limping. Got told again to go bigger. Broken ribs and a crushed kidney. Breathing is so hard, so is existing in general. No. Once more. GO BIGGER.

      So could I have been wrong about what the implications were supposed to have been? Absolutely. I’m wrong on a lot of things, a lot of the times. But I don’t know what bigger I could have gone from broken bones and organ crushing that DOESN’T include the allusions I think she was making, and I know that I’m not the only one who read that curse the same way I did.

      When she washed her hands and did not want to deal with you anymore she passed you off to another player, but you continued to antagonize.
      That’s untrue. Just, in all directions, that is untrue. OTHER people asked her to storytell from it, because they wanted to see the curse broken. She storytold curse breaking for her friends. She didn’t storytell it for anyone else. Conrad and Leto trying to bust her out of hell? That was them. Laurent, Ilaria, and Luka wanting the Sparrow story told? Again, their choices. I’m not sure why she thinks I can control what stories other people do or don’t write. But people requesting ST and job things about how they can help someone else? That’s not anything I can control. Blaming me for other people wanting to do things about plots and stories is weird at best, and manipulatively gaslighting at worst.

      After all that came Leto teaching the super secret family magic to Sophia almost immediately (you were only on the game like 2-3 weeks), then getting upset when the family comes at you for it.

      LOL. Honestly, I don’t know where you’re getting your info, but your facts are not correct. Leto did not teach Sophia Erikson magic. Over the off-screen first year they were at Brakebills, she learned what some runes meant. It was Wizard’s own suggest that one of the two dots we were given as second years for languages and background skills would have made sense to be Old Norse. I dropped that by his typist, and he said cool. Sophia never did nor planned to write/weave/ecth/whatever runes into something magical. But it doesn’t mean she didn’t watch him do enough of that to where she could look at a stone and know which of them would be hot to touch, and which frozen.

      SHE TOOK A SINGULAR LANGUAGE POINT.

      And two weeks after that point was added, Wiz changed her mind. Knowing the language was the SAME as being taught horrible, secret, private danger magics. So we had to fix it, or face the ICC of our characters being killed. We pitched a FEW things, so she could pick among them for what best fit her game.

      • Just retcon the language part. Sophia never learned it, the dot point can just be tossed and trashed.
      • Leto could refuse to tell Sophia about the dangers, and he’d take the risk and punishments for having taught her how to read runes if/when anyone ever found out about it.
      • Leto could make Sophia into an Erikson. He would tell Sophia about the risks her reading runes poses, and she’d begrudgingly accept a proposal. If anyone lived long enough to graduate, they would get married after, but long engagement to finish their education first - because untrained magicians are dangerous.

      NONE of those options were accepted. She told two PC’s that they had to elope and marry, literally that second on the spot… Or they’d be put to miserable deaths.

      So yes. I got snarky af about that. I was not a saint. I am not a saint. But I don’t think sainthood is required for being seriously pissed off when a character takes a sugggestion from staff, and then staff decides to use that suggestion as a reason to either force the character into unwanted marriage, or die a terrible death. So yeah. I was waiting for the ban, at that point. Because it’s not like I was going to take either of those other two options.

      But then you kept up the antagonism until she had no other choice to ban you. … But looking at them, they were all pretty reasonable. I’d say they were lenient to you.

      LOL. Whatever, man. If you think forced content and blaming a singular character for the choices of others is leniency? Huh. That’s a choice and world-view you can have, I guess.

      So now you think your embarrassing TS logs are gonna be put out there to get back at you,

      Oh, honey. No. I’m not embarrassed over anything I typed. If I didn’t want to have written it, I wouldn’t have. But unlike that vignette, I wasn’t the only person who typed them. It’s not embarrassment. It’s the super disgusting choices to invade the privacy of other characters and typists, a month after none of us are even there, because for whatever reason she just can’t let this shit go. I will never apologize for being worried and upset that someone would choose to write vulnerable stories with me under the pre-agreed boundaries that the scenes were and would be and stay private… And now I cannot keep those promises. Those scenes are in the hands of someone who has shown time and again they hold no scruples, principles, or respect for others. So yeah. I’m scared af she is going to hurt other people alongside whatever this vendetta my way is, too. If you want to pretend that being sad that other people are being hurt makes me non-saintly? Feel those feels. Emotions are things we’re all entitled to feel and to have validated. But after you’ve finished feeling them? You might want to look at the facts and experiences those emotions are based upon. Because there seems to be some disconnect between your beliefs and what actually happened.

      Is this enough of the drama you are clearly craving?
      Again. The craving of drama was someone logging their staff bit into the private scenes and conversations of a character who has been dead and gone over a month. She’s the one who decided to re-open all of this nonsense. I’m not going to apologize for pointing that nonsense out after she did so.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: How dangerous is VASpider?

      @Pavel said in How dangerous is VASpider?:

      Who cares what we have to say? Let the normal person doing real-world things form their own opinion.

      Nah. This isn’t it. If there is a predator known for hurting people in the real-world, and you know someone that predator is invested into as a potential next target… You don’t just stand back and possibly wait for someone just to be abused about it. They absolutely deserve to know the histories and the risks that are associated as fore-warned. We break toxic cycles any time and every time we can.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: MU Peeves Thread

      @insomniac

      I met a new gamer on a new game a few weeks ago. And they asked through the grapevine about my reputation… The answer they got was:

      Kind.
      SUPER AuDHD!

      I’ve never felt more seen by a stranger in my life.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent

      @Solstice - I’m putting this under a spoiler tag, because I hope maybe talking through similar things will provide some assurance and support. But. I also don’t want to trigger those fears further, or make things worse. So. If you don’t want to read it, PLEASE don’t. Either way. I’m so sorry you experienced that. I’m glad you came out ok on the other side. And I hope your mind gets gentler and kinder about how stressful drastic illnesses can be - even after they’ve physically healed.

      Commentary re: unpromised time and having to come to terms with the impossible beneath the tag.

      I don’t know if I should write this or not. But I’m going to, in hopes that maybe it will help ease some of your burden. If it makes things worse, I’m really, really sorry.

      I disappeared from the internet earlier this year as summer faded into fall. I got devastating medical news. It’s going to lead to an absolute horror-show ending that I am to my core terrified of experiencing and have NO IDEA what to do long-term about figuring out how to maybe cope with it.

      If I’m lucky, I’ll have time to maybe make coping progress. If I’m not… Well. I won’t have to cope after, either way.

      But the part that actually seems impossible… I know the whats. They are indisputable and not changeable at all. But. NO ONE knows the whens. Tomorrow? Next week? A random Tuesday a year and a half from now? A couple decades? There is zero timeline predictability from ANY of the specialists, despite the definite knowledge of how it ends.

      I spent a few months honestly just crying for a lot of it, and telling people how much I loved them in between. I spent a lot of time broken-hearted at all the things I might end up missing out on doing before it comes. I grieved the loss that hasn’t come yet, but that will.

      But the longer I grieved and the more I waited… The less patience I had for it. Some of the bucket list won’t ever happen, because my body isn’t capable. But. There are still plenty of things that I still may well have time to surprise myself with.

      I baked and cooked for those I love, their favorites, even if I couldn’t eat with them. The joy as they ate was more than enough. I went on long drives with loud music and windows down and good coffee talking about everything and nothing with my spouse. I watched bad movies with my partner. I spent as much time telling my bestie how perfect she is as I could. I veg’ed with friends and gave my mom extra hugs. I still cried a lot. I will probably still cry a lot always - even if it does end up being decades.

      I read books that have been on my to-read list for ages. I read old favorites from when I was super young. I bought tickets to every play and musical that came through our town, even if I did have to miss about a third of them because day of my body couldn’t. But I also saw a University production of my all time favorite musical that I thought legit did it better than when I saw it on Broadway.

      And each day where the awful didn’t come… Each day made me just a little braver in regards to my capacity to deal with the bad one, when it gets here. And eventually, coping skills and therapy made progress. I /probably/ know how. I’ll never know when until it’s done. But like. The SCARY part of that is true for everyone. None of us know when.

      And fuck. Maybe even I don’t know the how. Maybe a plane falls out of the sky on top of me, or I’m bitten trying to pet a rabid raccoon, or I get a Covid or flu or strep or other infection my compromised immune system can’t handle and the end comes without reaching the certain moment of awful after all.

      When it comes down to it… Every single minute is an un-promised gift. Try to enjoy as many of them as you can. Give yourself compassion and grace on the ones that are harder or scarier. Tell the folks you love how much you love them. Pet any fuzzy thing that crosses your path. Spend more on dinner than you can maybe afford that week, and make up for that favorite special meal with a few weeks of instant ramen to fund it.

      And just be as kind to yourself as you can manage. Because death is really scary. And there are no promises. But. Right now? In this moment, we’re all here, and trying, and doing our best. And that’s just as beautiful as it is terrifying.

      I’m not going to posit any of what may or may not come next. I don’t know for sure what I think about that even for myself, much less for what it could be with anyone else. But. I believe in every fiber that makes me that love is forever, and that spark will get passed on long after those who love me are gone, because it will show in how they love others, and how those others love others, and on and on and on.

      And when I forget how to grieve and mourn with joy and gratitude, and need a cathartic sob before carrying on… Andrea Gibson’s poetry has been unspeakably useful - to me. Her book ‘You Better Be Lightning’ is both heartbreaking and heartbuilding in all of the best and worst ways possible.

      I’m rooting for you over here. I’m rooting for us all. ❤

      posted in No Escape from Reality
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    • RE: Neitherlands

      Given what unshared scenes often consist of, I felt the idea of someone walking into a roster game and seeing that sort of activity with their new character might be off-putting.

      But I am so sorry this person keeps finding new ways to victimize you. 😞

      A few things:

      • I think it would be AMAZIGLY awesome to be able to share private scenes that makes them readable only to the characters who wrote them - and to wipe those if/when one of those charbits enter a scene/delete command.

      • At least the two she posted weren’t embarrassing. It’s just that one of them was being in the middle of being written when I caught my nuke… And the other was a vignette that was unshared because as I was writing it, things on the IC screen changed circumstances, so it was irrelevant. But I also figured in the future it would come back around again so I let it idle rather than needing to write it.

      • There are still three scenes that WEREN’T shared by her yesterday. One is a very ugly verbal fight while my character was in the hospital between her, her best friend, and her not-boyfriend. The other two were absolutely nothing at all except some pretty explicit smut. At this point… I’m absolutely expecting revenge porn posting of those at some point. And I’m not gonna lie… That triggers my CPTSD in some truly significant ways. But I realize how irrational that is, too. If it happens, it happens, and all I can do is hope anyone who may read it at least has popcorn. If there /is/ a line @inuki is actually willing not to cross… I’d be ridiculous amounts of surprised and grateful.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: But Why

      @De-Villefort

      I feel like it’s super weird how hard you’re going against the concept of people playing fantasy while ignoring a lot of the exact same issues in sci fi. But at the same time, I also absolutely get when one thing is just your thing and something else isn’t.

      But either way, I’m really sorry to hear about your mom, and the circumstances y’all are facing. And you’re not the only person I know for whom $12/month to spare on games is an unattainable luxury. I hope at some point soon that will change, because it’s terrible going check to check that way and knowing the only place to cut back is from your own plates.

      posted in Game Gab
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    • RE: Neitherlands

      @helvetica said in MU Peeves Thread:

      @Coin said in MU Peeves Thread:

      @CuriousGamer said in MU Peeves Thread:

      @Coin What game was that for?

      Neitherlands.

      Yeahhhhhh, haha. This bitch is out of pocket. So, she currently head-admins that game, where she’s gone gradually more and more power-mad in the mere three-ish weeks it’s existed. I have some receipts, but honestly, none of her behavior is particularly creative. A lot of knee-jerk redacting of rules and previous decisions, and revising history in an effort to isolate and provoke specific players of characters that she deems rivals, particularly those who seem to draw romantic attention. If players leave, even politely, she refits their characters as brutally murdered plot fodder regardless of last will.

      … along with a lovely shamy public post. She loves an all-caps shamy redaction post.

      All in all, a low score on the creep scoreboard. I rate her an avoid, unless you’re a cat who likes to play with your food.

      I have a LOT of receipts. Please make popcorn if you want them. Creep score is OFF THE RAILS. Like. First ban I’ve ever had on a game in 25 years. Taking this one as a badge of pride. ❤

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: Liberation MUSH

      @Wizz said in Liberation MUSH:

      hey surprise-- it’s transactional. “I’m shitty towards women because they haven’t paid attention to me.”

      It’s really just the exact same principle as the kinds of people who believe in “The Friend Zone”. The friendship is the valuable piece in the relationship. And yet, there are still weirdos out there who insist that they are such “Good Guys TM” that they “deserve” more than just friendship, and the fact that they’re not getting that “upgraded” transaction from their investment as a friend suddenly means the friendship is meaningless and they’ve been slighted.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: MU Peeves Thread

      @Alveraxus said in MU Peeves Thread:

      @hellfrog said in MU Peeves Thread:

      I’d advise against even having a policy that mentions cliques. Even though we all know friendship BAD

      I think what we really want to promote is openness and accessibility

      Here’s the thing, though. A lot of gamers have a LONG history with one another. And sometimes a KEY piece of a game’s accessibility is the ability for some players to block and 100% ignore each other both IC’ly AND OOC’ly. So. Anything that is depending on player A /having/ to interact with player B to move meta-plot forward is going to die as an option if only player A or B has a piece of info that the other would need in order to have the clues spread through the game.

      This is easily done by staff and story-tellers having all kinds of similar and over-lapping seeds where you only need a percentage of folks to work together to solve it, or to have a few groups solve it from various different and cool perspectives. But to have Players have to be responsible for needing to scene with people who have shown bad faith and intentional fuckery in the past? It’s not going to end well for anyone, and it’s very possible that many plots will just dead end before they’ve even gotten started.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent

      @Cobalt

      Bodies are SO terrible, and I’m really well and truly over the defective meat-suit my electrified jello got assigned as its transportation mech. Absolutely on team yeet it all into the sun and just give us brains in jars with alexa and screens and think to text uploads already!

      Also. I’m sorry that we’re all in this horror-show of dystopian lacks of basic existence level needs due to faults we were just assigned long before we had any concepts of what existence meant, much less what it SHOULD be. But If I have to be a (rarely) walking dumpster fire, I’m glad to at least share the glow with you over the smell of inedible s’mores. ❤ So much love and compassion to you, my friend. I absolutely see your struggles, and share the disgust and contempt for those making your life and existence harder instead of better.

      posted in No Escape from Reality
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    • RE: Neitherlands

      @DrQuinn said in MU Peeves Thread:

      She’s the person I was complaining about who wanted all the dicks on the zombie game. It was so blatant and ridiculous that she’d go out of her way to exclude other female PCs on a summary writeup for a posted scene.

      ROFLMAO. This tracks. I /wish/ all she’d done was exclude me. The LENGTHS this person took to try to steal a singular dick was… I mean. Unhinged is not even close to the right way to describe all of what she tried.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: Thoughts on pre-planned Time Jumps to Retire Characters and Play Their Descendants

      @Alveraxus

      To clarify, it wouldn’t matter very much to me how long each character exists in between time-jumps to move forward to new arcs and generations. The part that would be make or break for me is how much time and advanced notice there would be prior to those time-jumps happening. As long as characters have time and warning to wrap up their stories in satisfying ways, I think that’s what would be the most impactful piece of enjoyment for me in such a theme.

      posted in Game Gab
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    • RE: Celebrities We Lost 2024

      @GF Good riddance.

      posted in No Escape from Reality
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    • RE: Neitherlands

      @inuki

      I think all of this is going into more RL speculation than is healthy to ANYONE. I’m pretty sure it’s /past/ obvious that I find this person to be one of the literally worst internet strangers I have ever encountered. But there is zero reason for internet strangers to be harassed in RL.

      I think also trying to link them to other handles and talking IP’s also falls into that. I’m not sure it matters who this person was, all we can do anything with is whom they seem to be now. And who they are now SUCKS.

      I find it telling that there was no defense of their choices, just a complaint that if it has been handed to authorities doesn’t even matter, because what are any of us going to do, other than not be assholes who take someone’s unfortunate choices and self-absorption to all new heights out into the real world?

      Speculating what has or hasn’t happened to them via Guesties, and speculating who they used to be when they are actively being THIS? Waste of time, and just as inappropriate as the BS they have been - and continue to be - perpetuating.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • Jenn-isms

      Jennisms:

      Disclaimer, this has been DECADES, and I will have forgotten plenty. Feel free to tag anyone you remember that my swiss cheese brain has lost over time…

      New and (never to be) Improved, because time keeps passing…

      Current:
      Luminareous Ather: Emmaline and Key
      City of Glass: Cassandra and Eleanor
      Disquiet: Sadie

      Past… Ugh… Hang on…
      Under the Stars: Magnolia and Vivian
      Harvest Moons: Anne and Eliza
      Excelsior!: Jane and Maya
      Sixth Estate: Ash
      Keys: Lydelle
      Concordia: Belladonna
      Zombies: Shannon
      Wyrdhold: Dara
      Atharia: Kalei
      Neitherlands: Sophia
      Excelsior!: Janet
      The Network: Sadie and Vesper
      Crystal Springs: Alice
      Moon River: Ellie
      Firefly Still Flyin: Gin and Ellie
      Road to Amber: Aine, Sebastienne, Aura, Cori, Korra, and Elliott
      Hawai’i: Mellie
      Ithar: Alianna and Elendril
      Serenity: Kaylee, Moira, Aeron, Yvaine, Annabelle, Aislynne, Sophia, So many I’ve forgotten, probably, because why would I have thought to make NPC’s rather than too damned many PC’s for story-telling purposes?
      There have to have been other games over the years… But those are the ones that stick in my brain.

      (Edited to update 06/26/2024)

      posted in Pals and Playlists
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    • RE: Celebrities We Lost 2024

      @GF A lot of racist bigotry, and super awful politics and war mongering. Not all that abnormal in the US, but still pretty gross none the less.

      posted in No Escape from Reality
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    • RE: Neitherlands

      @RedJellyBean said in Neitherlands:

      My character on there was apparently blown up while trying to do a spell after I told her to delete my char.

      I think… From what I’ve heard… The spell-splosion was a “cover-up”. I think your actual dead pixels are because Sparrow poisoned you. But. Who even knows at this point. Either way… I have no regrets about having quietly ushered a few of y’all to find someplace non-toxic to land as the madhouse was working on self-immolation and circle jerks.

      posted in Rough and Rowdy
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    • RE: Thoughts on pre-planned Time Jumps to Retire Characters and Play Their Descendants

      So, I’ve been reading and following this thread for a few days, trying to figure out why it didn’t seem appealing - from a purely personal reason.

      Because the concept and theme seems unique, interesting from a continuing IC sociological perspective, and perfectly set up for flaws in a community to fracture, be mended, and fracture again in ways that will probably make for gorgeous, epic over-arching stories. I really hope to see this game open, and succeed. If it does… I may actually just lurk on the page to read well-written logs by those playing it.

      And yet, I knew it wasn’t a game that fits what works well for me. It just took me a while to figure out what that small detail of why stemmed from.

      And, from a player side… What I finally realized is that I’d have far too overwhelming imposter syndrome to ever have fun. I would, forever, be pretty sure I was getting some stuff wrong, potentially even BIG, plotty, thematic stuff.

      For me… The most intimidating part of the game is reading through all the info and lore background, getting familiar with IC and OOC history, catching up on bboards, skimming census data and existing characters, and then trying to find a niche that neither has a dozen people already playing that, or that is of something I enjoy enough to want to make my own character’s thing.

      I’ve realized that in spite of adoring the staff, players, culture, and writing at The Network, I can thrive in hiatus. But I’m not cut out to play through multiple seasons. Because the part of games for me that make the starting efforts worth it comes with the concept that once I’ve slogged through the backlog, now I just have to keep up in drops and pieces one at a time as they happen.

      Eventually, the learning curve plateaus and it gets easier, I learn the character, how they fit in. I figure out where they came from, where they’re out, and where they’re hoping to go. Sometimes, it even starts getting EASIER, and there’s a history that propels things forward naturally without having to SEARCH for scenes you can kind of shoe-horn into, and people come up with something and think, OH! I know who could help with this! Let’s go find them and ask. And then I just get to sit there and type things and it’s so much fun. It’s so much fun I forget how hard it is to get started again down the road with the same process, different game.

      For me… The investment of putting in all that effort, over and over again… It’s not even a new character and family in a setting I at least already know… But. When I think of where the world was in the eighties when I was a kid, in the aughts as I barely was an adult, in current days when I’m only starting to figure out a FEW things about the world…

      Collapsing each of those vast shifts of culture and history, and figuring out in the course of a few weeks what did or didn’t happen to fill them as one character fades out and a new generation comes in? It’s all the work, and much less of the reward. For me, it’s not a sustainable mental investment.

      But I want to reiterate, this is NOT criticism of the concept. I think the IDEA is cool as heck, and I hope that if it happens, both those building it and those playing it are able to have grand adventures figuring all of it out as y’all go. I’ll be rooting for all of you. Just… Wanted to give perspectives of some of what seems intimidating and perhaps barriers to play that might stem from the grandiose planned for accessibility.

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      JennJ
      Jenn